OK friends and family... I have finally decided to join the ranks of blogging! I must apologize to my friends and family who have barely heard from me these past 3 years while I've been working on my graduate degree. The good news is... 3 more weeks and school is finally OVER! I can't imagine what it will be like to breathe again, read again, and be social again!
I've read a few of the blogs out there and have been surprised to find out that some friends are preggers! That is so cool. I feel like I've been missing out on so much. I have a niece and nephew I haven't even met yet (sorry Ryan and Juliana - Auntie Jill will be visiting soon). I'm really looking forward to being able to travel again - to see my family and friends that live far away.
I feel like I have been walking/living in a fog these past few years. I can't believe how fast life is passing me by. I'm so happy to see my dearest friends and family creating beautiful families of their own. I must confess, however, that I often feel completely left out. I know that couples like to do things with other couples so it is really difficult being single and often left out of fun activities that I see my friends and family enjoying. I don't know how much longer the Lord will test me with not finding that special someone with whom I can build a family, but I sure am tired of hearing, "your time will come", etc.. I guess I'm just really starting to feel old and I can hear my clock ticking.
I really hope I don't sound like I'm whining or that I don't appreciate what I have been able to accomplish in my life thus far (such as buying my first house, achieving a Master's degree, etc), because I am so happy with knowing that I can accomplish things I never thought I could. I guess I just feel that I'm not able to accomplish the things that really matter in life and that truly fill someone with a sense of peace, happiness, and contribution to the Plan of Salvation.
Wow, I think this blogging thing is quite cathartic. I feel much better now - tee-hee. I thought for sure I would have erased what I mentioned above... but I think I will leave it - it is, after all, how I'm feeling. What a way to start the blog... but stick around, more positive posts soon!
6 comments:
Welcome to the blogging world! Glad to hear that school will soon come to an end. :)
don't worry, don't worry! your time WILL come :P hee hee
Congrats on being so close to the finish line! That's so great. :) Blogging is so great because you can be totally open, and people really benefit from it. It really is therapeutic.
CONGRATULATIONS JILL!!! I am so proud of you, I knew that you would get it done :). I love your blog! Welcome to the Blogging family. I miss seeing you and visiting with you! We will have to get together sometime :)!
will you ever blog again?
Hi Jill, I just saw your bloggery for the first time. There's no stopping ya now!
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